My vocal chords have been fighting, my mouth likes to spite me.

"The devil on my shoulder stares, laughing that the one thing I can't get, is what I need."


7 ;  Troubles with people.


I'm sure we've all had those times when you just can't stand basically everybody around you? Well, yeah, I'm about 100% sure you have. It's natural.  But what happens when you can't stand most of your friends?  Yes, they're you're friends and you love them.  But at the same time, you only want to deal with their personal problems for so long.


Prom, prom, prom.  It's about a month or so away, and of course everyone is freaking out.  I may or may not have mentioned this before, but it's NOT a big deal if you don't go to prom.  Not a big deal at all.  It's senior prom, and would be fun to go to, but at the same time, its not the end of the world. Or it shouldn't be, but my entire grade is making it out to be.  Especially some of my friends.  They believe that they must be asked by an entire line of boys, who oddly enough-- already have dates.  You can tell her a million times not to worry about it, but she doesn't want to feel "Dumb" for not having a date, or she feels like "Nobody likes her". Newsflash. Boys are falling head over heels for you, they just aren't the ones you want.  See, she had about 4 or 5 guys ask her last month, but none were the one she wanted.  Then she finds out that he already had a date, and then she realized what she missed out on. But then I have to constantly remind her, that a lot of people didn't get asked. Such as myself. Or many of our other friends.  It happens. Not all girls are as popular as you. Bam. 


Girl fights.  Yes, picture Mean Girls in your heads, the nasty girl fights.  I'm sure most high schools have them.  And if not, they at least have very petty, bitter, nasty girls.  That's life. That's how girls are, I know.  But what happens when one girl begins to mess with another, who is supposedly her friend? Well, in that case, shit goes down.  Drama. Drama. Drama.  Friends should stick up for their friends, not be in their faces to constantly tell them that they believe their doing the wrong thing.  Say it once, fine. Twice, eh. Three times, pushing it. Four times, THATS ENOUGH.  It's almost as if they're trying to start drama. Listen, we all know that our friend isn't doing the right thing, but we don't continue to tell her over and over to make her feel like crap. That's not what friends do. Period. And hen you decide to kick them when they're down. Like, no. That's even worse.  Asserting your opinion on someone when they're terribly sad is not the right way to go about things.  It will cause drama. And it did. It made things extremely awkward and led to a big falling out. Perfect. Now, as outside friends, more of us are forced to try to make things not awkward. It's hard.


Boys.  Can't live with em. Dyin trying to live without em.  Well first of all, best guy friends. Again. Haha. He is a normal topic of conversation around here. Because he is an interesting character.  I guess with him, I just wanted to make a quick note that things are not back to normal. Nor are they close.  We text about 2 times a day, 3 days a week. Facebook? nah. Twitter? heck no.  School? Once a day. For about 3 minutes. No big deal.  Well, kind of. It's sad.  But what happens when you have second thoughts, 5 months after a break up. Well, technically, you've had these thoughts since, but you haven't wanted to look back. But now the lack of any communication with this person is killing you.  Talking to them would be the best thing in the world-- if it went well. Which there is a very little chance that if you did talk, that would happen. But it royally sucks. Oh well, I'll talk more about him later. Trust me.


Okay, that's it.
Laterrr.


"How can the only thing that's killing me make me feel so alive?"